Right Now
I have squabbled with God over this for a while now. However, for now, I am stepping away from this space.
Yes, I do have 10 drafted blogs and a ‘plan’ for the trajectory of this ministry but Proverbs 16:1 says that the Lord’s plans prevail. I love encouraging other women, representing hope, and advocating for survivors of sexual abuse.
Here’s the thing, though, there is a time for everything. There was a time for young and married me to go through a sexual abuse recovery group, there was a time to write curriculum with a toddler climbing on my head, and there was time for me to write and publish a book while nursing a newborn.
There is absolutely nothing wrong with pursuing dreams, working hard, having hobbies, or having kids and a career. Where God calls you, where God has you, there you shall be.
Right now, the Lord has drawn me back to my mission-field at home back to the roots of where I belong. He is luring me away from this online platform and into the presence of my children. Currently, I am not doing well balancing both a demanding social media algorithm and my duties as mom and wife.
Ministry, blogs, social media, careers they will all still be wherever I leave them but my children will not keep. I want to raise boys who eat sourdough biscuits and homemade sausage gravy for breakfast, learn to tend the garden in the afternoon, and listen intently to CS Lewis (or the like) at bedtime. I cannot do all the things pressing in my heart if I am splitting my time chasing my own glory and esteem. I cannot and will not follow Christ first if I am putting me in the throne seat.
I have huge plans for this space, eventually. But, again, those are MY plans. I don’t know what God has for me down the road but I know where He has me right now. And right now, I’m all in.
Right now is for gardening. Right now is for growing a sourdough starter. Right now is for learning to can pickles. Right now is repairing the camper. Right now is for homeschool. Right now is for reading and watching, growing and changing. Right now is for motherhood.
See ya later,
Rachel
