The #metoo movement on social media has erupted. Those two simple words are powerful and impactful. It shows others just what a plague sexual abuse is to our world but also gives survivors a voice, makes us feel united. As a woman who has been abused as a child and harassed as a teenager, here's my take.
Little girl? Me too.
Alone and ashamed? Me too.
Believing lies that I was to blame.
His choices, my pain.
The result of sinning expecting to gain:
Broken pieces of a life grasping for reigns.
Manipulated and mistreated? Me too.
Feeling worthless, defeated? Me too.
Boys called me whore.
Must have been boys because don't men know more?
Harassed, used, meant to feel low? Me too.
Unaware that love is selfless? Me too.
It was a man that stole my beginning
I was begging for an end.
Thought love was dependent on just one thing.
Hands in the air, ready to surrender? Me too.
Called a daughter, heir to the throne? Me too.
I've been hurt and God I denied.
Surely, if he loved me he wouldn't have left me here to die.
Lifted up God took hold of me and called me HIS to stop believing lies.
Loved and belonged? Me too.
Angry and heartbroken? Me too.
He binds up the brokenhearted, dries my tears one by one.
The pain caused by one man has not left me alone.
But shame is not mine to bear, I've put that in it's home.
Clean and New? Me too.
Ashes to beauty, the phoenix from the flames? Me too.
I was hurt, crushed in fact.
My life was never the same after that.
Evil meant to demolish me
Christ changed the trajectory.
Afraid? Me too.
Living in silence? Me? No more!
He overcame the grave so I could defeat mine.
I walk upright, head held high.
Lies, shame, guilt, hate have all been cast aside.
Blessed, redeemed? Me too.
He changed me, made me new.
Victim, that's not my name.
Survivor, where my heart will remain.
If you've been a victim of sexual assault or abuse and you have not disclosed that to anyone, be encouraged that you are not alone, this is NOT your identity. If you feel compelled, share with me at firstname.lastname@example.org but know there are resources for you and healing is possible. Even if you think you've dealt with it, the effects can live dormant for quite some time or your deep denial has kept you from processing and dealing. If you don't know what resources are available to you; I am happy to direct you.