First Baby Post
I have waited for some time to make this post. The announcement is already out. We are having our third baby.
I have waited to write this for a variety of reasons: busy life, incredible nausea but ultimately the lack of encouragement that I have felt.
But here I am at 14 weeks feeling just as nauseous and exhausted as week 4. I’m feeling sorry for my dear husband who has had to deal with some mood swings(!) but ultimately, after much prayer and thought I’m just sorry for everyone who decided that a 3rd pregnancy is NOT a big deal.
I am not one to gloat and make a huge to-do about myself but this pregnancy truly is a gift. After watching many friends struggle with infertility, infant loss, miscarriage and bad health in the midst of pregnancy; I know that it’s every life is meaningful. Every pregnancy is the opening doors to redemption, discipleship, love and hopefully salvation.
After years and years of sexual abuse on every level (visual, verbal, physical & psychological) and an endometriosis diagnosis at 22 I am honored that God picked me to carry another child. I cannot answer the question of “why me instead of you,” because the truth is I do not know. I am not God.
I do know that because of you: the woman who cannot conceive, the momma that lost her child in utero; I am not going to take this pregnancy for granted.
Dearest Third, Here you are. You will always be my number 3 and a magical number it will always be. You were wanted; you are wanted. I cannot wait to meet you. I pray you know deep down inside that you are loved. You are loved tremendously. Love, Mommy